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Oh man, I haven't updated in a week. How sad.
Well, the roommate situation has finally come to an end. I met with Jennifer (RC of this building) and she told me that she knew all about how rowdy the tenth floor is. She noted the fact that many of the girls on that floor are sophomores and have already established their friendships there, making it extremely difficult for a freshman to feel welcome or get along in this situation. I told her how complicated the situation was (fact that roommate knows like the entire damn floor, plus that our families know each other) and she came up with a solution. It looks like I'm not going to be able to buy out that empty room on this floor (nor will anyone else until the girl checks out of the damn thing lol), but there is a room opening up on the eighth floor, which is by far quieter than the tenth. One of the new occupants is this shy girl, quiet like me, who hasn't gotten to know many people around the building, and Jennifer thought that we would be a perfect match. So now all I have to do is meet with Jennifer again tomorrow, and she will arrange everything, and hopefully by the end of this week I will be out of this room and on the eighth floor. I was so happy after I left that meeting, I could have jumped off the top of the damn building and floated. :D It's not that my confrontational skills are bad or anything, because believe me, if I need to confront someone I will, but the fact that our families do know each other make it more likely for some drama to start between my roommate's family and mine, not just the two of us. Because if she was brass enough to make me look like the bad guy before (and be chicken enough to tell her mother but not say it to my face), then only God knows what else she could do.
I had to write yet another paper for English...It was only two pages long, and I had to turn it in a little later, but the professor told me not to worry about it, since I had As on my last two papers anyway lol. So, turned that in, and then there was the Stats exam yesterday. I'm pretty confident that I did fairly well on it, it's just that I wasn't so sure about the 2-sample T-test thing...I mean, getting the pooled one was easy enough, but I got kind of confused there, as I forgot whether I still had to calculate the pooled standard deviation or use the formula where the sample standard deviations were squared. Oh well, I'll find out how I did soon enough. [EDIT] I got a 97%. Wee.
Oh my God, I hung out all freaking night/morning in the 24-hour computer lab Thursday night. Death. I had to take a nap when I got out of class LMAO. Justin fixed the wireless on my laptop...and when he did I wanted to die, because I swore everything was okay when I set it up the first time. The strange thing is, it got signals, yet when I went to the lab I didn't get a thing. Weird.
So, I kinda went to Anime UC Friday night (there was a large group watching something else, I guess, and then there was Justin and a couple of other people (and a few in-and-out people) in another room. We watched Harmagedon...hahaha that movie is so fucked up. Then there was Karas (six-part OVA), an episode of Bottle Fairy XD! and some other stuff, including this slightly pervy/bizarre as hell anime called Photon. It was about midnight when I left.
One thing, I pretty much stayed to myself the entire time. Justin tried to get me into the conversation at the front of the room a few times, but for some reason, that old feeling that I had in high school came right back and bit me in the ass; that very, very small feeling that results from the fear that you will never fit in anywhere. Maybe it's because even though I'm tough, have snark, and look intimidating, I'm still pimply-faced lol. Justin asked me a good question though: Do I really enjoy being a hermit? I don't know...I mean, the life I live is pretty much ideal for me because being around too many people at once drains the hell out of me (when I do attempt socialization), and the fact that I make my near-asceticism known with my attitude keeps away people with whom I wouldn't want to engage in any sort of interaction. The thing is, after a while, the desire to meet at least someone new still comes back every once in a while, and meeting someone usually involves meeting lots of people, which is something I avoid completely. So it's a tough predicament. I almost flipped out and went back to the room just going this Friday, so Justin offered to pretty much meet me at the dorm and walk there with me.
I haven't seen John in eight weeks now. I realize now that it would have been much, much easier on me if we had just maintained an online relationship and then met later, way later. But we met about a week after we first started talking online...and even though he's only 150 miles away as opposed to the thousands of miles between some people, it still sucks ass when you consider that, due to transportation issues, we can't exactly hop and skip over to see each other on weekends. As it is now, the time is starting to slowly eat away at me. He might be able to make it down this weekend, but I still don't know. The bear makes me feel a little better, but it just isn't the same. So for those of you who might have some kind of envy for me...don't.
New layout coming soon. I think this one is making me not want to update lol.
Spring Break couldn't even make it here fast enough to keep me from going nuts.
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